A quick update (Jennifer)

A quick update.  I have not been paying too much attention to my eating and in an amazing way it feels great.  There is no guilt and I am feeling like a "normal" person eating normal portions of normal food.  Wow...I never thought that day would come.  I havent been on the scale in a few days but the last I checked I was about 168.  Still in my "my range".

I greatly look forward to the nice weather to begin my running and such again but right now that is not what's on my mind.  I am still not feeling well and have been back to the dr.  I have the new ENT and the new primary dr.  The primary took my bloodwork and said my white count is a bit high and wanted me to have it redone along with some other tests.  I went yesterday for that.  Then he had a call with my ENT and they decided I needed two CT scans... yesterday.  Yup, ordered them and I had them in the same day.  I was a nervous wreck.  I havent heard on the latest bloodwork but my dr himself did call me last night at 6:00 with my preliminary CT results.  He said my lymph nodes are enlarged on the left side.  I kind of knew that since I havent felt good in that area in months...  He also said that although they did not scan my sinuses again it did pick up on a sinus infection.  I have been on 4 rounds of antibiotics and I am even on them now so I do not understand this.  I am hoping that is what is causing all my my issues.  I am forever clearing my throat and have awful post nasal drip on top of all of this.  I am going to call my ENT tomorrow to make sure he got the CT results and see what is next.  Obviously the antibiotics are not working for me.  I dont want to be a pain in the butt to them but I dont want to wait until my next appt which is scheduled sometime in March.

I pray all of this gets worked out soon so I can be on my way to a healthier me.  Yesterday I was praying to God and I had this realization about what is important in life.  An epiphany? Health is important.  Family is important.  Self love is important.  It made me realize that I cannot sweat the little things in life and let them get me down.  I need to stop and smell the roses so to speak. I found myself asking God to make me better and telling Him that I have learned my lesson and that I will be much more appreciative in life.  I hope I do get better and past whatever this illness is so I can move on in my life as a much healthier person, both body and mind.

Wow.  That was deep.  Thanks to you all for your continued support and kindness.  I apologize for the lack of blogging but I figured most people dont want to hear about all this medical drama on my weight loss blog so I figured I would keep it at a minimum.