Thursday, July 29, 2010

Thursday Weigh Day (Jennifer)

This week involved some ice cream and even some smores.  But I believe that I deserve these things in moderation.  I am counting calories and exercising more than I ever have in my life.  Today's weight: 161.  That is a loss of 2.5 from last week and a total loss for me of 65.5 lbs.  Wow.  When I looked and saw what my weight was last week I got all excited because of the loss.  Initially I had a slight disappointment that I didnt see the 150's.  But that is ridiculous.  I am making progress and eventually some day I will see a 5 and be thrilled!  I may need to readjust my end goal.  I was hoping for around 140ish but only time will tell what my body will allow.  I set that goal well before I was even out of the 200's.  I have gained so much strength both mentally and physically through this journey.  I have learned so much about myself and for the first time since I cant even remember when I have a little self pride.  And afterall, this is what the REAL goal was right?

Have a great day :)

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Its been a few days (Jennifer)

Its been a few days since I have written.  We decided to go to Old Forge for a few days.  It was a last minute idea and I am glad we did.  I brought some food so I would be prepared to handle my eating.  That worked out well.  We had turkey burgers one meal, sandwiches another, eggs for breakfast, etc.  I decided that since I knew there would be ice cream involved in the trip at least once that I would exercise.  My husband told me which way to run since he knows the area and then even got in the car and DROVE it so I would know how far it was.  Its these little things that make me appreciative of him...even if I asked him to do it :)  One "lap" was .6 miles.  So I set out and with a little calculation (which surprised me that I was able to calculate anything with my music in my ears) I decided I would try for 5 laps to make it 3 miles.  And that's what I did...a 5K!  Three miles jogging at different paces(I was experimenting) and then a walk for the last lap.  Later,  I decided we should walk to town to get ice cream (its quite a hike) and then back  of course.  So off we went with the double stroller and the dog.  I deserve ice cream.  And that is a hard thing for me to grasp.  I can eat yummy foods in moderation, right?  I need to get past this guilt thing when it comes to yummy foods that I used to eat daily.  I got a small mint chip cone and was pretty happy.  And I was secretly happy that the girls needed help with their cones too :) 

We are back home now.  I added some stuff to the blog on the side.  I have asked Trish and Teresa for some pics to add on here too since the 3 of us write on here.  Send em to me ladies and I will put them up!!! It was quite an internal debate whether or not I should put the picture on the side there of me in a bathing suit.  But this is real.  This is who I am, now and before.  So, I put it up...and I am not looking back.


Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Size is in the eyes of the beholder (Tricia)

I have to admit that I am still uncomfortable with people telling me how great I look. Its really awkward for me...that is I make it awkward. When I hear them say that I look like I lost weight or I look smaller, the little Tricia in my head (..and yes, I fully picture a miniature Tricia in my brain) walk out on stage and pull out her mega-phone and say "..AHEM..YAAAYYYY~ Someone NOTICED..that is all" and walk of stage. However, on the outside I shrug a little and say thanks," I still have a ways to go."
I know that I can move around better and see places of my body that were once a memory, and wear smaller clothes. And I am enjoying showing a little more of what God gave me and feeling better about the clothes I am putting on, but the other day I realized that I still do not like my body. That 50 lbs that are gone made me smallER, but not small or healthy enough. It is hard for me to be proud of how far I come because this glass-half-empty girl is still focusing on how far I have to go before I am comfortable with myself again. And with that came my realization that along with eating healthy again, I have to set another mini goal for myself. I have come down about 1/3 of the weight that I want to lose and I find myself focusing on the big picture again. So while I am settling into my current life with out Medifast, I am going to start with a teeny tiny goal of 5lbs. Just a little push to get myself going again, because I know once I start getting my weight off again, I will remember how great it feels and set larger goals. 5lbs, that is what I am asking of myself right now.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Weigh In Results/ Karens blog (Jennifer)

First I would like to say thank you to all of you who commented on my last post.  It was apparently a topic so many of you could relate to.  Its great to know I am not alone in this.

So  I weighed in yesterday hoping for awesome things after my 3 lbs (and undeserved in my opinion) gain last week.  The scale said 163.5.   That's a loss of 2 lbs since last week but still up a pound from two weeks ago.  Frustrating?  Yes, but not the end of the world.  I am sure a normal person's weight fluctuates from week to week within a few pounds.  I guess the frustration part comes in because I feel like I am being so good and should get "so good" results for it!  I never used to exercise 4-5 times a week OR count calories.  Yet I was maintaining my weight at about 225ish back then.  I am eating between 1200 -1400 calories a day.  Usually around the 1400 range, and exercise has become a regular part of my routine and who I am.  I think my body has gotten used to this new me and all the exercise and is hitting a little plateau.  I hope its little anyway!!  Until then, I will truck on.  Because this is the new me :)  And I like this new me better.  Hanging out in the 160's is way better than when I was hanging out at 225.  Each Thursday is a new experience when I get on the scale.  Regardless of what I see I dont have the fear any longer that I will get upset and fall off the wagon.  There is no wagon I have decided.  This is the new me.  No wagon.  hehe.

My friend Karen has decided to try Medifast.  She has been one of my main supporters through this weight loss journey.  She is one of the people I would call or text with my weight on Thursdays because I know she really cares.  She is also someone who I know is excited when she logs on and sees a new post on this blog.  She is a follower and has left lots of comments.  I love comments.  She has encouraged me since day one and even got me to sign up at her gym.  So having said that.....Karen just started her own blog and I thought it would nice if I could give you all her blog address and maybe you could stop by and give her the support she deserves!  We all know how far a little bit of support goes!!!  As some of you may know, Medifast is a VERY rigid program and takes extreme control to stay on plan.  The first few days are especially tough.  Today is her first day and after talking to her I hear mostly excitement in her voice!  Yaaay Karen!  Making the choice to change your life is half the battle. 

As for my exercise this week...I did zumba 4 times this week and also worked out.  I just love the zumba classes.  The more I go the more comfortable I feel.  Last night I realized I was a little intimidated before the class started.  I was looking at all the girls in the class and immediately felt like the fat girl.  It was on my mind for most of the class.  Then I asked myself if I really was the big girl or if that is just the mentality.  Heres what I came up with upon re-evaluation:  There were bigger ladies there than me for sure, and there were smaller ones too. I realized my issue is how my midsection looks.  The rolls get to me and keep me in "big girl" mode when I look in the mirror.  This area is what makes me feel overweight.  Soooo....I have decided to have a few dates with Tony Little's ab dvd. 
As most of you know I am a big fan of Tony but believe it or not I have never tried this ab DVD that I even own!!!

Its Friday...I hope you all have a nice weekend!

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Another Munchie Day (Tricia)

Today at work we had a junk food munchie day. Yeah, Like all of us who are stuck in our chairs all day need to eat more junk. Well, today's munchie day was a little different. A few weeks ago I was promoted so I had a desk change. I now sit smack dab in the middle of the department. And what is set up in the middle of the department? The food tables. I was grateful that I could pretty much turn my back to the food for most of the day, but when ever I had to get up..BAM..hello munchkins...cookies....cupcakes...chips...ugh...Well, I tried to plan ahead for it and packed more fruit to eat than normal. And I pretty much stayed away from the junk, except for one small piece of cookie pie that was delicious. So over all, I was pretty proud of myself. But oddly, I found myself to be more hungry today and ate all the extra food I packed. Interesting...Is there something in our brains that knows the extra food is there and it runs to tattle to our stomachs? How dare you betray me, brain! :-)

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Hello, old friends. (Tricia)

Hi Everyone. I am sorry that I disappeared for so long. It has been a wild ride for the past month or so and I really needed to re-center myself emotionally and physically. I had some rough times dealing with some issues life threw at me, nothing specific, but you know how it is when the snowball just keeps rolling down the hill. And, given the fact that I am a control freak, when things beyond my control start happening, I tend, that might be a good way to put it. I had to re-focus and that meant taking some time out for myself from blogging and facebook, and basically the computer all together. But I am happy to report that I am starting to regain my footing and return to life not in panic mode.
Sooo...lets get down to business. Medifast. After much deliberation and rationalizing, I have decided not to return to Medifast just yet. I have to say that it was a great program and I it worked so well. I may return to it in the future if I feel I am not meeting my goals or if I feel I need to. I can say over the past month that I have only gained 1lb since I stopped the program. But it is time to return to weight-loss mode and to focus on me again. I had to reflect on what brought me to the Medifast point in my life and remind myself of all the reasons I started the program. I had to bring up all the fears and reasons why I needed to lose weight. I then had to decide what the best option was for me to manage my weight-loss currently. I was thinking about WW again or counting calories, which are basically the same thing. But, I decided against those options and decided that I have done those before and I know how to do this. I know what I should and shouldn't eat, its just a matter of NOT eating what I shouldn't eat or eating them in moderation. Yes, the M word. I used it and applied it correctly, thank you. It is a new term to me since I never grasped the concept before. I am not sure if this is going to get me the results that I am hoping for, but this is a time when I feel that I have to figure out what works for me to keep taking off the pounds. And if it doesn't work, I am not going to get frustrated or angry with myself, I understand that I am going to have to adapt to something that does work. I don't want to be on a diet anymore. I want to learn how to eat correctly for my body for me to be a healthy person.
Jennifer, Teresa, and I started this blog in February talking about a journey that all of us were starting on. I thought that I had made a wrong turn somewhere, but I now realize that my path to get where I needed to be was just a little different.

Monday, July 19, 2010

The difference (Jennifer)

I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember.  Even though I wasnt obese in high school I never was happy with my weight.  It was when I went to college though that things got a little out of hand.  And I caught it.  At least I thought I did.  I joined weight watchers and lost almost 30 lbs.  Then I met my husband, got comfortable and put on a whopping 75 lbs at least.  Several years later, we had two little girls in the span of a little over a year. We had moved away from home and I really think that I fed my lonliness and stress in attempt to feel better.  The bigger I got the worse I felt and the more I ate.  It was quite a cycle.  I tried for years to do weight watchers again.  I tried  joining again...and then again...and I tried even more rounds on my own.  And I just couldn't seem to make it happen.  I would lose some here or there and then put it back on, usually more.  I was forever saying that I would start the next day, after I was done indulging today.  This went on for years.  Until finally I didnt even recognize me.  I was living in shame, embarassment and guilt for having put on the weight.  When I would go home to see family I would dread going out to public places in the event that I might run into someone who would recognize me and how much weight I had put on.  I spent years and years with this shame.  And no matter how bad I felt about me I just couldnt seem to lose the weight. 

I was thinking today about why things are different now.  Why have I lost 60+ lbs and even when things get tough I dont quit.  Instead I try harder and am more determined than ever.  The old me would have gotten frustrated and quit.  But not now.  Why?  What's the difference?  I think it is a few things.  First, I think I was obese for so long that I actually forgot what it was like to be thinner.  I forgot how it felt physically and mentally to be healthy.  I forgot what it was like to be happy with myself.  As I lost more and more this time I started to get a taste of what it was like again.  And I never want to go back.  I dont ever want to forget what it was like to be obese.   Second, I think over the years I had failed so many times at weight loss that I actually dreaded the thought of a diet.  It seems so hard and like the end goal was not achievable.  So why bother?  I thought of it as a short term thing where I would eat veggies and foods I didnt even like,  and have to give up everything I loved.  This leads me to my third reason.  I really feel I have made some lifestyle changes this time.  I had heard of people saying lifestyle changes in the past and pretty much what I heard was "blah blah blah".  But now if I want to eat something I dont deprive myself.  That is KEY for me.  I eat in moderation and I like it.  I choose healthier things to fuel my body and control my hunger.   I am exercising regularly and I have a good idea of what I am eating and how much I am burning.  I have educated myself on what is good for my body and how to be healthy.  And last, when medical stuff started going on and the dr's were talking about my weight, liver, heart, sugar, etc then I truly got scared.  Now that I am a mom that makes it even more important that I take care of myself.  I want to be the best I can not just for me but for them.  They deserve the best mom they can possibly get.

Thanks to all of you who inspired me on this topic today.  There are many blogs I follow that really make me think.  So many topics really hit home and relate to me.  And that is just one more reason that I feel that this time is different for me.  I have surrounded myself with supportive people who really care.   Thanks to you all.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

A wonderslim week! Teresa

Well after eating out two times last week and once the week before I decided that I would stay on plan all week. And the results, well let's just say they were worth it! I was down 4 pounds this week. 4 pounds without exercise. I have had this problem with my feet and I have not been able to exercise but I will get back into that routine soon! The weekend is when things get tough for me. Yesterday I brought my son to Pizza hut, I now know why I do not go these things was definitely not enjoyable. He is only 22 months so trying to occupy him and eat was tough, not to mention bringing him with me to the salad bar...ugh! Anyway I did eat some "off plan" food but I took Shea on a 40 minute walk when we got home. Then today I had a bit more carbs and fat than I would have liked but overall it has been a good day. This morning I tried on a pair of pants I bought back in Feb. because I really liked them but they were way too small. I bought them because I had just started to get serious about losing weight and I figured if I worked hard I would fit into them by summer. Well guess what....yup that's right...they fit! I am excited because they are only 1 size bigger than what I wore 4 years ago!!! This is huge for me! Especially when talking about jeans.....I always go a size up in jeans. I am 1.5 pounds from my next mini goal and 17 pounds away from my first major goal. I have not been this "small" since before I got pregnant for my son! I LOVE wonderslim!!!

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Choices (Jennifer)

After my nasty experience with the scale on Thursday I decided I need to re-evaluate my choices.  Had I really been that bad to gain 3 lbs?  I really dont think so but whatever.  That is what the scale said and I accepted it.  No pouting, no poor me, and no giving up.  Just truck on because this is the new me and I have a CHOICE how I handle it.  So the notebook is out with the pen right there with it just waiting for me to eat something so I can log it in there :)  And that is just what I have done.  My mom has been in town and I have been a little lax in my calorie counting.  Today I logged it in meal by meal and by the end of the day I was over 1500 calories.  Not bad, but a little more than I have been eating.  Also, there has been a lot of picking at this and that.  And that is something that is a huge downfall for me.  However, I have been attempting to count even those calories.  And that leads me to the next issue.  Eating things that I have not made or that dont come with calories on it makes for a lot of guessing and I am not that good at that.  Today I had some zucchini coconut bread.  It was so good.  It was homemade, my hub's aunt made it, and it was so delicious that I really have no regrets eating it.  But I have no idea how many calories it is.  I picked and picked and then put it down for 200 calories.  It could even be more but at least I put something down right?

Today my dad came back into town and we took the boat out on the lake.  It was nice.  Then after dinner we decided we were going to go for ice cream.  The old Jen was so excited and I had it all planned what I was going to get.  But then after I saw I had eaten over 1500 calories I decided I should skip the ice cream and even stay home so I didnt torture myself.  I love ice cream.  And so I made the CHOICE to stay home and pass on the ice cream.  That is a big step for me.  But it gets even better.  Not only did I stay home but I seized the moment and got into my workout clothes and hopped on the treadmill.  I will admit that part of me was dreading it but I knew it was the right CHOICE.  So I planned on my 3 mile run.  I prefer to run outside but now that the skeeters are so bad , and literally deadly where we live  :(  (we live near a swamp) I now will only run inside unless I go somewhere else to run.  Had I know that before we bought the house there may not have been a purchase.  Anyway......sorry for the tangent there....I got on the treadmill and did my 3 miles.  Then I decided to go for 4.  I had put it on 6 mph for a minute or two which is a huge challenge for me.  And then when I got back down to 5mph it seemed so much easier and I decided to keep going....I RAN MY FIRST 5 MILE RUN TODAY!!!!!   A fellow blogger, Dawne at, inspired me that maybe I should bump up my effort after she blogged about her first 10 K run.  I just love her blog and find that I can relate to her posts.  She is an amazing woman and so inspiring.  Thanks Dawne!  We tried your Egg bake yesterday and we are going to make it again tomorrow morning.  Cant wait! So yummmmy.

A few more shoutouts...and this isnt going to be pretty because I havent gotten this link stuff down yet...

Debbi at mom and I tried the ranch turkey burgers last night for dinner.  I kid you not that they were so good that my mom had the leftover for lunch today and then we made them again for dinner tonight.  She was telling my dad tonight at dinner about what an excellent recipe you had.  We used the spicy ranch packet made by Hidden Valley and I threw and egg in to help it all stick together a bit.  Yummmm.  Pizza burgers are next...

Jen at -I got my Gnu fiber bars yesterday and I love them!!!!!  Thank you so much.  My mom and I are going to order some more we love them so much.  Thanks for the opportunity to enter your giveaway.  I am forever talking about my digestive health and I am such an excited winner!

I hope you all have a great weekend!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Not so pretty weigh in (Jennifer)

Since coming off Medifast several weeks ago I have been counting calories and really doing pretty well with eating in moderation.  It has made a huge difference in how I feel and I am enjoying my new way of life.  My mom is in town this week which is great, but our schedule is a little off.   Monday was my birthday and this past weekend I had a party to go to.  Yes, I did have a small piece of cake and have had ice cream twice this week but I have not given up on the exercise at all.  I have been pretty up to par with that even though it has been a busy week.  With the cake and ice cream cone (X 2 this week) considered I really expected a small gain(like maybe a pound) or to maintain.  I thought I had done pretty well.  I was surprised this morning to get up and get on the scale and see 3 lbs up since last Thursday.  What????  I really feel like something doesnt add up.  BUT....if you were to ask me to go back into my food log where I count calories you would see a lot of blank pages or half filled out pages.  But still, I thought my conscious efforts would have made a better impact than to see a 3 lb gain! 

However, having said stomach has not been so swell.   The fiber is going in but not doing its job :(  if you catch my drift.  So may be that is half the issue right there.  Gotta love digestive health.  I do wish I were a little "healthier" in that department, but is what it is.  I think I will give it a few days and reweigh myself with the hope of seeing better digits :)

Onto something a little more positive.  My mom took me out shopping for my birthday and I got some new clothes...which were desperately needed.  Apparently I skipped right over size 14 and went from a 16 (I only had a few 14's) right into a 12!  And most of the tops I got were medium or large!!!  Yaay!  So that says a lot and I will not let my 3 lbs get me down.   I read once on a blog that with sizes 14 and under  there is only an inch difference in pant sizes.  Interesting.  And that explains why I lived in 18's and 20's forever because anything above a 14 is a difference of 2 inches per size.  So I will take my size 12 and smile about it :)  It is an amazing accomplishment for me.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Busy week (Jennifer)

My mom is in town for the week.  I love when she comes to visit.  We are very close and I love to spend time with her.  Plus, she is such a huge help with the kids and it is almost like I get a break!  My girls just love her so much and it warms my heart. 

Yesterday was my birthday.  It was a nice day.  My dad is here for a few days too and we went out on the boat for a while and then had my favorite subs for dinner.  It has been a while since I had them and I have to say that I was a little disappointed.  It wasnt quite what I expected.  I changed some things up to make it a little healthier (wheat bread, no blue cheese, etc) and apparently it made a huge difference.  But thats okay.  My 3 year old wanted me to have a Minnie cake so we managed that.  We bought a very small lemon cake and somehow turned it into a rockstar Minnie cake.  I did eat the cake(a small piece) but no ice cream.  I also decided I deserved some cookies.  Afterall, it was my birthday.  I had 3 mint cookies and they were fabulous.  Overally I think I handled "my day" pretty well.  The old Jen would have housed half the bag of cookies for sure.

I went to the gym this morning.  I did some cardio and upper body and tomorrow I am going to bring my mom and we are going to do Zumba!  I have not been going to the gym as much as I used to for the main reason that the girls were sick and then we had lots going on.  But I am not concerned and I know I will get back into the swing of it when things slow down and get back to to normal.

Margene-as for what music I listen to...I used to listen to country almost all the time.  Good, clean music.  But since I have been jogging I feel that I need something a little more upbeat.  Whats on my MP3 player is really all over the place.  Some country, some rock...But I try to find some hip hop stuff to keep me going for when I jog.  The only problem is that I am getting older and obviously have matured,  and I dont care for what they are singing about usually.  The beat is great but most of the time I find myself saying "I cant believe they allow this music on the radio" and "I dont want my kids to hear this".  It isnt like they are swearing or anything but in my "good girl" mentality it seems BOLD.  So I find myself constantly looking for stuff that is upbeat AND clean.

Monday, July 12, 2010

My birthday (Jennifer)

I went home to see my family and friends this weekend.  It was really nice for the most part.  I miss them but really do love the area where we live.  I met my parents new MAMMOTH monstrosity of a dog.  I LOVE big dogs.  Seriously though, he is huge.  He is so long and tall and I cant even explain it....  His paws are HUGE.  He is a hound/ St Bernard mix they rescued.  A giant.

Anyway, I went to dinner on Friday night with my friends for my birthday.  I did have a few cheese fries because I didnt want to feel deprived.  That is where I have gone wrong in the past and this is something I recognize.  They were soooooo good even though there was a little guilt.  And since it was my birthday dinner my friend made them sing to me. Embarassing?  Yup.  And out comes the ice cream and whipped cream and chocolate.  There is something about the whipped cream at Outback Steakhouse that is just fabulous.  I really enjoyed it.  I had a salad for dinner so it wasnt so bad I guess.  Then we went to a birthday party on Saturday.  There were so many foods to pick at.  Luckily someone brought a veggie platter and I was thrilled.  I ate a normal dinner(cheeseburger and a tiny bit of macaroni salad and a few deviled eggs.....yummmm.  But those veggies were my saving grace.  I realized that it is so easy to sit around talking to people and stuff your face with whatever.  So I picked up the celery and carrots and went to town.  Snacking was more of something to do than it was to feed any hunger.  A great realization for me.

Then today we went to see my brothers new house.  He and his wife just bought it and I wanted to do my "oohs and ahhhs" that they deserve.   We had a nice breakfast and then my youngest daughter got stung by a bee.  She didnt cry so i wasnt even sure it happened!  She said "oh no!  the bug got me!!!"  I have been concerned about this day as my husband is allergic to bees and our girls could be too.  So inside I brought her to watch her carefully.  Sure enough she had gotten stung and started getting big white bumps on different parts of her body-an allergic reaction.  After a call to the dr and a trip to the store for Benadryl we will need to carry an EpiPen now and see an allergist.  They say the reactions get worse with every sting.  This poor kid has been through so much.  Geez. 

Monday is my birthday.  My family is out to visit and I am so excited.  I will be careful with my eating and try to keep as active as possible.  I hope for a great week!  So far so good since I won the contest at Jens Losin It(a fellow blogger who has an awesome blog)!!!  Gnu Fiber Bars!  And those of you who know me know just how exciting this win is for me.  I sure LOVE my fiber bars  :)   Thanks Jen!!!

Friday, July 9, 2010

Weigh In Results -Bye Bye Negativity (Jennifer)

Today I weighed in.  After my foolish weekend I wasnt sure what to expect and since it is "my time" I figured I was game for just about any number the scale would show.  Today's weight:  162.5.  That is a loss of 1 pound this week (64 lbs down from my high weight) and to be honest, I am so excited about it!  I have been having a lot of mental games lately.  My awful run the other day made me doubt myself.   The girls being sick and not getting to the gym made me doubt myself.  And then when they got better and I didnt WANT to go to the gym I doubted myself.  My not counting calories over the weekend made me doubt myself.  But I am happy to report that the negativity seems to have passed and the enthusiasm is back! 

Today we spent the afternoon and evening with our friends on their boat.  It was such a nice outing.  We snacked some on the boat and I was feeling a little flustered not counting my calories.  Then came the ice cream cone and pizza.  But all in all I really dont think it was that bad.  I felt in control of what I was putting in.  When we got home it was late.  But knowing that I will be busy with family this weekend and I might not have a chance to get my exercise in, I decided to get on the treadmill.  And since I am working on not pressuring myself (see yesterdays negativity post) I decided I would hop on the treadmill and do 2 miles which is a little over 20 minutes.  I could handle that.  And I am so glad I did.  I got on there with my music and I went into "the zone".  I cant explain it but I will try.  I hit two miles and I didnt want to stop.  So I got to three miles and decided I was still good so why not go further?  I even did 6 mph for a llittle bit and then 7mph for a very short time(that is awfully fast for these short legs).  I had my music playing and I felt like a rockstar.  I had dragged my husband to the basement before I got on the treadmill and by this time he was sleeping on the couch.  That is... until I started singing outloud.  I guarantee it wasnt pretty to listen to or watch for that matter but hey...I was having a ball.  Did I say that?  Having a ball EXERCISING?    They always talk about this "runners high" and apparently I had it!  Some good tunes and a treadmill = ROCKSTAR.  4 miles is what I ran tonight.  I was totally into it.  And best of all, I turned my brief period of negativity of running (after my awful run the other day) back into something positive again!

My hubby is funny.  He said when I was singing  "Go Jen, its your birthday" (its almost here) again and again that he was singing along, but I didnt see him or hear him since he was laying on the couch and I was rocking out(his words) with my tunes in my ears.  For those of you who know me and my hubs I am sure this is a great mental picture!

Tomorrow I hope will be an awesome day.  I am going home to see my family and friends.  I am getting my hair done (cut and color :)  and then going to dinner with my friends Teresa(from our blog) and Ron(her hubs).  I am really looking forward to it.  I miss my people, and I desperately need something done with this hair!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Attacking the negativity (Jennifer)

This is an important post for me.

I finally made it to the gym today.  I did my upper body workout and then a zumba class.  I spent a few minutes in the sauna and that was it.  It did feel nice to get back into it.  But after not going for so long I felt pressured to go.  The pressure was from no one but myself.  The girls arent sick so I didnt have an excuse.  For a while I was going about 5 days a week.  It was quite a little routine we had.  But then I got out of the swing of things, although I was still exercising.  Today I was mentally making plans for the rest of the week.  I have a dr appt tomorrow and then on Friday have plans all day.  So I would really have to squeeze the gym in tomorrow in order to go, get home and shower and then to the dr by 11:00.  And then this wave of negativity came over me.  I was pouting inside!  "I dont want to go to the gym tomorrow but I should because I cant go on Friday.  I want to stay home and spend some time with the hubs on his day off". Then it hit me.  I was posting just the other day about how I dont want to set myself up to fail.  Just because I dont run 3+ miles or go to the gym doesnt mean I am a failure and have to drive to Mcdonalds and then stop for an ice cream cone(large) on the way home. Nope.  If I give myself rigid expectations that I must go to the gym X days a week and complete X  miles per day then I am setting myself up to fail.  That is when the pout comes into play and the negativity towards exercise comes out.  That is how I operate.  I have seen this before.  I will not let it happen.  I have learned from my mistakes in the past.  I am a different person now.  I exercise, I eat healthier, and I am AWARE of what is going on.  I am blogging almost daily and I think overall I am making changes in the right direction.  So there...I need to take the "requirements" that I have placed on myself off and let myself enjoy the gym, enjoy exercise.  I need to think of every exercise "event" as a success instead of every day off as a failure.  The mind is a powerful thing...

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

This heat (Jennifer)

Yesterday I was all geared up for Zumba.  I have been doing some running here and there but havent been at the gym in a while because the girls have been sick.  But...then I got a call from my dance teacher.  She sounded awful and I knew where this was going.  No zumba!  I just love my zumba class.  There is no AC at the dance studio and I was still looking forward to it if that says anything!  So I thought...after this weekend and not being at the gym I really need to exercise today.  It was 91 degrees and I am not sure why but I insisted on going for a run outside instead of downstairs on the treadmill in the AC.  Maybe it is just the point of getting out?  So I did it.  I went two miles.  All the way through mile one I was thinking..."wow, this is harder than usual.  I am not feeling this at all. I cant wait to be done!"  I couldnt wait to get past mile one with the hope it would get easier like it usually does.  I have been doing 3 miles and been okay.  Well not this time.  I could not wait to reach that stop sign which is the end of mile 2.  I couldnt even force myself to cross the street(running) to where my house is!  I had to stop and walk.  I was a little surprised by myself.  I didnt think I was sweating much but when I came inside the sweat started dripping off me(as I was sitting in front of the air vent dying to cool down1).  I assume it must have been the heat and humidity making the air so thick to run in.  I didnt enoy the run at all.  In fact, it was awful and I couldnt wait for it to end...pretty much like how it used to feel before I was "conditioned".  I also had a cramp on my right side which I have been getting a lot lately when I run.  But I was also still tired.  The wedding really did me in on Saturday!  I must be getting older.  Anyway, my negative experience with running made me want to get back out there and get something positive out of it soon so I dont start dreading it and get a negative perception of it.  The heat wave is not supposed to let up as it will be 95 today so I will give it a whirl on the treamill next time I think!

As for the gym...I was really hoping to get there today.  I was hoping my daughter would be better by today.  Afterall, it has been 8 days for this stomach thing.  But I was up ALL night with her last night.  I am so tired and I know she is too.  She kept calling me in telling me "pukey pukey" and I would sit with her and the bucket and then a few minutes later she would tel me she wanted to go back to bed.  This literally went on from like 8:30 last night when I attempted to go to bed (I was exhausted) until 6:00 this morning.  There was no "production" but I dont think she should still be feeling sick.  I am wondering if it is her reflux flaring back up.  It seems like its only when she is laying down that she says she is sick.  I am bringing her to the dr today.  My poor baby.  She asked to go "night night" morning at 9:00  but she didnt sleep.  It has now been over two weeks that the house has had some kind of sickness!  First my 3 year old, then my 2 year old.  Hopefully it is on its way out!!!! Enough is enough already.  The people at the gym probably think I quit!

I am going to try to make it to zumba tomorrow morning.    The girls are missing the gym too.  They were really looking forward to going this morning since I was expecting her to be better by now.  But I am a mom who believes that when your child is sick you should keep them home and not spread it around.  I mean a cold is one thing, but this is another.

On another note... I see we have 49 followers now!  That really touches me that maybe someone could be influenced by my experiences.  For those of you who follow and also those that comment thanks so much.  I hope you are finding our experiences helpful in some way!  I have learned to really enjoy both reading and writing on here!  There are so many blogs out there that I find awesome!  Its quite a little support system for me.  So again, thanks.

Holiday Weekend (Teresa)

The holiday weekend started Friday for me.....My husband and I went out to our favorite restaurant for our 6th wedding anniversary. I pretty much ate whatever I wanted. We don't get out much, especially just the two of us so I figured I would live it up. I did not go crazy. I brought a lot of food home but pretty much anything other than a shake is wild on wonderslim! On Saturday we went to a picnic and then out to dinner. It is hard to do wonderslim on the run because shakes and bars are NOT interchangeable. Then on Sunday and Monday I was careful but not "on plan". All in all I still feel good about myself. I got a few new shirts this weekend and they are a bit different than what I would normally buy. Today I am back to the grind. It's the first day of summer school. I am doing the principal thing for the summer so it will be a nice change of pace (I used to be a principal but I went back to my classroom to do the mom thing).

So no official weigh in today. I enjoyed my weekend and I do not want to obsess over what the scale says. I weighed in last Thursday and I will weigh in again this week. I figured now is a good time to get in sync with Jen and Tricia!

Monday, July 5, 2010

The weekend (Jennifer)

I am not overly thrilled with my weekend.  I felt a little out of control with my eating.  Maybe not out of control as much as confused?  It wasnt food I prepared most of the weekend so I had no idea how to track it properly.  Then we went to the wedding on Saturday (where a few people did comment on my weight loss) and I had some wine.  I am not normally a drinker.  It is not my cup of tea.  The wine glasses seemed so small so I figured they would be harmless.  Live and learn I guess.  I now remember WHY I dont drink...and there are several reasons!  I woke up all embarassed yesterday morning and although my husband says I was fine he then got a text message from his buddy asking how his wife is today.  Totally embarassed.  That is not who I am.  Although dancing was fun.  I dont usually dance either.

I am back on track with my eating today which is great but have not been to the gym in a week.  My little girl (the second to get this sickness) is still getting over her stomach virus.  She had severe reflux as a baby(amongst some other stuff)  and when she gets any illness like a cold or a stomach bug her gag reflex activates and turns the reflux back on.  She is two so we have gotten used to it ,but it doesnt mean it is any easier.  So hopefully that will calm itself and we can return to real life.  I think we have changed her sheets like 8 times in the last week.  All she has to do is cough and its all over from there :(

My hubs is home this morning but I didnt go to the gym.  It was quite a battle I had within myself whether I should go or not.  I am going to zumba tonight and I am hoping that by tomorrow we can make it to the gym.  It feels so much better to get back on track.  I was thinking about going for a run this morning but it is 94 and humid out there. 

I hope you all had a great weekend.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Frumpy feeling again (Jennifer)

Today for the first time in a while I have this stuffed, bloated, "frumpy" feeling.  I think it is a combination of the lack of gym time this past week and the sodium in the Italian sausage we had for dinner last night.  There has also been a lack of fruits and veggies which is not good for my "digestive health".  I even looked in the mirror today and swore I saw my double chin was back.  I had to look twice.  Maybe there was a little fluff under there but nothing like there used to be. 

After feeling the frump I decided I really needed to go for a run tonight.  I had to make up somewhat for my time missed at the gym this week.  So I had this plan in my head all day that I would run later on when it cooled down but before dark.  My allergies have been awful today.  I have been stuffy and sneezing all day.  And dont you know that I sneezed so darn hard around 6:00 tonight that I swear I pulled a muscle in my back.  Is that crazy?  I wasnt sure I was going to be able to run.   But then I are hardcore!  Go for it!  And I did.  And once I got going it wasnt bad.  I think for me that the first half mile to a mile is the hardest part of my run.  Does anyone else feel this way?  I wonder why.  Then once I get going I feel like a rockstar :)   I am still new at this whole running thing.

Oh...and the most exciting thing (that is so exciting that I almost forgot to mention...haha) run the other night that I did( that I had no idea how far it was)....well we traced it today with the truck and it was....3.6 miles!  That is a definate record for me  :)  But here is my problem.  Once I accomplish a new thing I have a hard time ever doing less than that.  So now that I have done 3 miles, or 3.6 then I feel like a slacker if I do a 2 mile run.  I know this is ridiculous and it is something I need to work out within myself.  It is part of the Old Jen that is setting me up to fail.  Been there, done that.  I didnt even used to be able to run a half a mile so I should be so happy running 1 or 2 miles.  I guess I am an overachiever?  I mean, its great to push myself but I also need to be happy with my smaller successes as well.  Because that is just what they are...successes.  Accomplishments.  If I am only up to a 1 mile run, or even a walk, then I should do that.  Because it is better than sitting on the couch because I am not up to a 3 mile run.  This is where I need to change my thinking.  And I will do my best :)

Enjoy your weekend  :)

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Thursday Weigh in Results (Jennifer)

As I have been blogging about all week I have made some changes and really wasnt sure how they would affect me on the scale this week.  Last week I did not have a loss.  This week I decided to add some more calories into my diet.  And although I had planned on keeping up the the exercise at the gym it really wasnt possible this week with the girls being sick.  However, I did go for a run last night.  I am not sure exactly how far since it was outside but I will sure get into my car and  retrace my steps to see.  I think it was possibly over 3 miles so I must know as that was my longest run. the point.   I got on the scale and saw a two pound loss since last week!  Yaay!  Today's weight:  163.5.  It seems like the 160's are never ending but I am so happy to see movement in the right direction on the scale! My next mini goal is to see the 150's and that is 4 lbs from now!  So I have decided that somewhere between 1300-1400 calories is where I will aim.  I have done my share of reasearch and they say when you are coming off a low calorie diet (such as Medifast) or have put yourself in starvation mode(I am sure I did with the exercise added to the plan) that you need to SLOWLY add the calories to your daily intake so you dont have one big gain.  So that is what I have been doing.  I just cant get over how "serious" I have been about this weight loss thing.  I have gone to McDonalds, had pizza, ice cream and yet have lost because I counted calories and done this in moderation.  I have really learned something here.  I also make sure I eat every 2-3 hours so I dont get that overwhelming hungry feeling.  Then my beast of a stomach manipulates my mind into eating unhealthy when this happens.  So...if I eat every 2-3 hours and dont allow starvation to set in the scenario plays out much differently.  This is a HUGE revealation for me...and hopefully the key to my long term success combined with exercise.

Teresa posted today about doing little things for herself like going to the spa, painting her toes and such.  I totally agree that doing little things to make yourself feel better plays a big role in self appreciation and self worth.  Right now funds are tight for us as the central air was finally installed(for those of you who have been following for a while you know just how exciting this is for me!!!!) so there hasnt been too much room for little treats for myself.  But the AC in itself is a treat and I am so appreciative.  But I do paint my nails and toes and make them look pretty and today I am going to battle my jungle looking eyebrows.  That will make a big difference.  We have a wedding this weekend and its the first time in I cant even remember that I have to dress up.  So any free little things I can do for myself I will  :)  Eventually the haircut, the highlights and such will follow. 

Today I am thankful for:
*My darlings slept in this morning!!!  Whoo hoo.   I cant remember the last time I slept past 8:00.  How nice.

Today's reason for losing weight:
*I want to attempt the kickboxing class at the gym but I tend to be a little intimidated by it.  It looks pretty hard core and it seems like you have to be fit to keep up.  Hmmmm...I wonder how I would do????


Bringing Sexy Back (Teresa)

I have noticed that I have lost just enough weight to notice. I am starting to regain my confidence and swag ( as the kids in my class say!). I bought some new shirts, and pajamas. I also just bought a new dress for a wedding I will be going to next month. The dress is 3 sizes smaller 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so bringing sexy back! I have been doing some things for me lately and it feels good. I am tanning and going to a spa, painting my toe nails and keeping myself up. I really feel good or at least better than I did. I am excited and that is the best part. I am ready to start each day. I am looking forward to the future me. Right now my weight loss total is 26 lbs. and I already feel good. I cannot imagine what I will feel like when I am down 26 more!