Friday, January 28, 2011

No surgery/my conversation (Jennifer)

I had my appt with the new ENT dr who said he doesnt think I need surgery.  While there may be an issue with the sinus that is not what he believes is causing my issues.  Although he doesnt know what is causing them.  So...he said he is going to try to treat it from many angles with the hope that I start feeling better.  He was very nice and I really felt like I was in the best of hands.  I left there with way more prescriptions then I would like, but at this point I am willing to try anything!  But I have faith in this dr for some reason.  And coming from me, that is a big deal!

Medifast- I am still doing it.  Its day 4.  I am hungry.  But I have been managing.  I got on the scale this morning in a moment of weakness because I was just about to talk myself off the plan.  The scale said that after 3 days I lost 6 lbs.  Sure, most of it is water weight but, hey, it was the reassurance I need to stay on the plan.  And let me tell you, I was pretty darn close to talking myself off the plan.  The food I have is not my favorite Medifast food but I am managing. 

Today I was talking to one of my newer friends.  I was telling her about my struggles with Medifast.  She tried Medifast a few months back after hearing of my success.  She said to me, "why dont you just be happy with what you look like?  You are beautiful and look great!".   This took me by surpise.  She never knew me when I was 230 lbs.  I explained to her how I have put some weight back on and how I used to be much larger and I dont want to go back. I told her I am not comfortable with how I look and feel right now.  Then she said something else that totally shook me.  She said "do your girls know that you diet a lot?".  Um...after the shock wore off I fired back and told her I did Medifast for a few months last year and since then I had just been eating healthy and exercising.  I told her how I made daily changes such as eating whole grains and more protein, and other than that I dont really think I have been dieting.  I know she didnt mean anything negative by it but for some reason I felt attacked.  I never refer to myself as fat, or make comments of any sort about myself or anybody else in front of my children.  I never refer to my food as diet food, whether I am on MF or not.  I still eat my dinners with them, and usally we eat the same things.  My kids dont even know the concept of overweight, or dieting.  And I dont think they should at their ages.  Do I offer them healthy  things for meals and snacks?  Yes, but not because I am worried about their weight(they both take after their slim daddy).  I want them to be healthy...which is what I want for myself as well.  And right now according to the weight/BMI charts I have 30 + lbs to lose.  I am not even aiming for that.  I think 150(20 lbs) will be comfy for me, although still considered overweight on the charts. 

I hope you all have a great weekend!

7 comments:

Polar's Mom said...

Huh, I don't know your new friend, but that would uber piss me off. Diet advice is one thing, but inferring how you should be teaching/acting around your kids is even beyond mother in law boundaries. I'm sure your friend meant well, but she needs to think a bit more before speaking-cause that came out wrong.
And girl, I am so freaking hungry right now, but last week I was STAAAAARRRVING all week, so I am kinda glad it's not that bad. I'm so sorry you have to deal with the soup. Seriously I am. You want me to buy you some foods tomorrow and ship them to you so you don't have to buy $300 worth of food online?
I am glad you have a doc you trust, that is so important I think. I hope he gets you all straightened out cause it has been a long time for ya, I know. Thanks again for your kind words on my post-it means alot to me when I lay it all out there...

Polar's Mom
www.polarspage.blogspot.com

Desert Singer said...

Good for you for sticking with the MF... and glad the scale was a wonderful number the right direction :-)

Go You!!

Kristen said...

I think you are doing great. Since she too was doing MF she is not happy with her weight I assume. women are always competative, she probably doesnt realize she is doing it but she doesnt want you to lose more weight because of her struggles. My GF who we are going to the waterpark with told a friend that "I am just eating healthy till the waterpark". Yeah thats it 1 year of hard work for 24 hours at a waterpark then i am going pork back up with milkshakes. But she has never weight more then me till now. And she doesnt like it. but she not about to give up her food, get off the couch, and of course she is so much busy then me to fit in a workout. Whatever she needs to tell herself! I focus on me and so should you.

J said...

So weird. I just wrote a post on this to be up later this week! Does your friend have kids? I wonder what she was thinking when she said it?????

I'm glad you are back on track. Hang in there!
J

Kelly said...

I've seen a lot of people talk about Medifast, but I'm not sure what it is. Is it like Slimfast? I'm not sure if I could do it myself. I'm glad you won't need surgery.

anna said...

Sounds like you have a very healthy approach to eating and losing weight. Very inspiring! 150 is great, especially if you are active and eating well.

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