No surgery/my conversation (Jennifer)

I had my appt with the new ENT dr who said he doesnt think I need surgery.  While there may be an issue with the sinus that is not what he believes is causing my issues.  Although he doesnt know what is causing them.  So...he said he is going to try to treat it from many angles with the hope that I start feeling better.  He was very nice and I really felt like I was in the best of hands.  I left there with way more prescriptions then I would like, but at this point I am willing to try anything!  But I have faith in this dr for some reason.  And coming from me, that is a big deal!

Medifast- I am still doing it.  Its day 4.  I am hungry.  But I have been managing.  I got on the scale this morning in a moment of weakness because I was just about to talk myself off the plan.  The scale said that after 3 days I lost 6 lbs.  Sure, most of it is water weight but, hey, it was the reassurance I need to stay on the plan.  And let me tell you, I was pretty darn close to talking myself off the plan.  The food I have is not my favorite Medifast food but I am managing. 

Today I was talking to one of my newer friends.  I was telling her about my struggles with Medifast.  She tried Medifast a few months back after hearing of my success.  She said to me, "why dont you just be happy with what you look like?  You are beautiful and look great!".   This took me by surpise.  She never knew me when I was 230 lbs.  I explained to her how I have put some weight back on and how I used to be much larger and I dont want to go back. I told her I am not comfortable with how I look and feel right now.  Then she said something else that totally shook me.  She said "do your girls know that you diet a lot?".  Um...after the shock wore off I fired back and told her I did Medifast for a few months last year and since then I had just been eating healthy and exercising.  I told her how I made daily changes such as eating whole grains and more protein, and other than that I dont really think I have been dieting.  I know she didnt mean anything negative by it but for some reason I felt attacked.  I never refer to myself as fat, or make comments of any sort about myself or anybody else in front of my children.  I never refer to my food as diet food, whether I am on MF or not.  I still eat my dinners with them, and usally we eat the same things.  My kids dont even know the concept of overweight, or dieting.  And I dont think they should at their ages.  Do I offer them healthy  things for meals and snacks?  Yes, but not because I am worried about their weight(they both take after their slim daddy).  I want them to be healthy...which is what I want for myself as well.  And right now according to the weight/BMI charts I have 30 + lbs to lose.  I am not even aiming for that.  I think 150(20 lbs) will be comfy for me, although still considered overweight on the charts. 

I hope you all have a great weekend!