Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Tomorrow is the day

I have made plans to go to Weight Watchers tomorrow.  A friend of mine is also joining with me   I feel very strongly that although I will support her,  I am on this mission on my own.  My success is up to me.  So whether she does great, or not so great, that is totally independent of my experience.  Does that make sense?  I am dreading to see what the scale says tomorrow but I am super excited to get on a plan that I believe in.  I look forward to learning and turning my focus on my eating.  I think its just what I need at this point.  If I have a structured plan to follow I can do great, I know it.

I went for a short run today.  Last week I ran in the rain and really struggled.  I stopped several times and just really wasnt into it.  It was probably the worst run I have had.  It made me soooo hesitant to get back out there and try it again, especially knowing my eating has not been good.  I blame only myself.  My weight is up, my pants are tight (to the point I cant wear most of them) and I am cranky about it.  So I thought getting out there for a planned short run might help me better than forcing myself to get back into by running a longer distance.  Also, the hubs can tell I am struggling.  He bought me a new pair of running shoes that I have had my eye on.  He really does want me to succeed.  Here they are:


I needed a little flashiness, hehe.  Today was my first run with them which is the other reason I did only 2 miles.  I wanted to gently break them in.  I completed the two miles but it wasnt as enjoyable, or easy as usual.  But its done.  I needed to get back out there just do it.  My shirt says so...see?

I guestimate the weigh in tomorrow to be somewhere around 190(this shirt hides the extra fluff well).  I was down to 160 and it disgusts me to have undone my hard work.  But its going to take more than disgust to get me back to 160(which at one point was not even good enough....grrrr).  Its going to take lots of hard work and determination.  So...here I go again. 

13 comments:

Melissa said...

You can do this! I just started my weight loss journey in July, and I also started off with weight watchers. I since stop going but I'm staying strong and sticking with points and calorie counting. I lost 15 pds in 10 weeks and have lost another 3 for a total of 18 pds. I feel great and WILL continue until I reach my goal. I recently joined myfitnesspal and I love it...so much encouragement from members and the success stories are inspiring.

Shelley said...

Love what you wrote about your friend's success being independent from yours - sounds like you are ready to do this! (haha, yes, just like your shirt says).


Those new running shoes are awesome. Love the bright color - bet just glancing down when you run will make you smile.

Sarah said...

I am so excited for you to start weight watchers! I was never thought I could really lose weight but I have been going to WW meetings for a while and it really works! I love your attitude, I started WW with my best friend. She was a great support but when she quit I did better in a way because then I was really independently taking it all it. You sound ready, I know you will do great.
I LOVE those sneakers!!!!!!!!!

Jessica said...

Love the shoes!!! Hope WW is a good fit for you :)

Kate Carter said...

You certainly sound like you're ready to tackle this with full force. Looking forward to reading about your success!

Mom to the Fourth Power said...

Don't look back... keep looking forward. Your hard work has paid off and you've learned a ton and come a long way. You've made yourself healthier. The whole weight battle is so ongoing... for all of us. We have to eat! Each day is a new day with opportunities for healthy choices. Good luck with your new plan and I hope it works well for you, my friend. You can do this, girl!!! You HAVE done it and you are a ROCKSTAR!! :)

~Margene

The Fat Mom said...

Totally understand wanting to be supportive of your friend but want to focus on your own weight loss journey independently.

Love the shoes! Don't be so down on your self about running. Ok, so you were doing awesome....it will take only days before you find you want to be out there again. Keep it up!

Kelly said...

WW is a great tool. It can only help you, not hinder you. I know you will be successful on WW.

Cyn said...

you got this!
i just rejoined ww too and like you i am stoked for a plan that i know works!

okay hubs is so obviously a keep cause those running shoes are to.die.for!

do they come in purple?!?
heh

Mike said...

Best of luck, you will succeed with that attitude.
WW worked for me a few years ago, not feeling it at the moment so have joined myfitnesspal which is a great resource with lots of great people to share successes with.

jamie@sweatyhugs said...

You can do this. WW is a GREAT plan! My MIL lost about 75 lbs on it so I've seen what it can do first hand. Love...loooove the running shoes and how you said you needed a little flash. I just recently bought 2 new pairs of tennis shoes myself, and they are both in BRIGHT colors that cheer me up! :)

Becca said...

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Karen said...

I am excited to read about your journey on Weight Watchers! You can do it. Like you said, you can do it and you will. I have faith in you. Maybe I need to see first hand how well WW works. Sd if I see how well you do, I'll join. (No pressure, just want to see it firsthand) I was skeptical at first because other people I know that have done it, didn't do so well. Maybe they didn't give it 100% but I know you will. Looking forward to hearing about your success!