Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Things I miss

I was about this close to reordering Medifast food yesterday.  But before I processed my order I went through my old Medifast posts from when I first started the blog.  The first week was a huge loss of 10 lbs and every week after that I lost like 1.5 lbs average.  It just seems like a lot of money and a drastic way of eating to lose a lb a week and not be able to exercise.  My weight loss slowedand sometimes even stopped with exercise when I did that plan. 

I miss being proud of my weight loss when I look in a mirror.  I miss wearing a size 12.  I miss feeling good.  I am pretty sore these days. My body is not happy at this weight.  I miss feeling good about myself.  I miss feeling less self conscious.  I cant even imagine getting in a bathing suit right now to get on our boat we bought last year.  I miss shopping for cute clothes. 

The only thing stopping me from all the things I miss is ME. 

My husband keeps telling me to exercise. The last thing I feel like doing with my sore bodyis exercising.  Be he is right.  And I need to get over this confusion of what to eat, especially when I dont know the calories of something like a complex meal that I cant just look up online. 

So I whipped out my WW stuff and will use that as a guideline.  I think it will help.  WW runs pretty much along the same lines as calorie counting except I get free fruit :) 

I feel like I am grasping at so many options over the past weeks.  But I really need to help myself out here. I am so unhappy at this weight.  Only I can fix it.  The warm weather is coming and I need to have a plan in place NOW so when its boat time I am not refusing to wear a bathing suit.  Also, all of my warm weather clothes are size 12.  I will having nothing to wear if I dont do something now! 

I need to get some things at the store!


Enz said...

You know what to do and you know you can do it. Start now :) So glad you're back !

Chubby McGee said...

You can do it!!! You just have to put your mind 100% TO IT.

Debsdailylife said...

It can be so frutstrating to have so many choices!! SOmetimes it seems easier to have someone say, Do this, then this, and finally this.
BUT, we do have choices!!! Hope you can find your way thru the choices!! and find what works for you!

El said...

Funny... I just went through the same mental process and settle on WW as well... hope it works out for both of us!

Joy said...

You can so do this!! I know when I got started exercising, I did not like it. Now, I'm starting to crave it. When I first started cleaning up my diet, I would have loved a cheese burger. You know, I never think about them. The thing is to just get started!! You will be feeling better soon!!

Keep focused!

Anonymous said...

Laura says...I hate that I cant figure out how to post using a cool picture next to my name. I also say YAY!!! I miss the confident Jen pushing me to run all summer long! I know the you that shines like a star on everyone around you and encourages everyone you meet to push themselves to achieve their goals. I know you can do it GH!!!Let's meal plan together!

Holly from 300 Pounds Down said...

I have done medifast before multiple times. It works just like a lot of things if you stick to it. I never could stick to medifast though. I preferred WW so that's a good choice. As for exercise, I have struggled at times too. Usually the only way that I can make myself start exercising again is to set the goal so incredibly small that I can achieve it no matter what. Like I might say I'm going to do 5 to 10 minutes of a Leslie Sansone walking video and that is all. Then the next day I add a minute. I just make it so small that i can't fail. And it's kind of shocking how quickly you build back up to wanting to do it again. Your recent pic looks really great to me! Good luck!!