This week... (Jennifer)

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I havent posted much this week.  My daughter has been sick and the docs where trying to figure out what was going on.  It was a long and stressful week.  It involved several trips back and forth to the dr and also for other tests.  The diagnosis suspected and confirmed today:  pneumonia.  My poor baby.  She is almost 4 and has only been on antibiotics once before this.  And they said that is probably why they worked so well and fast this time.  Needless to say, it was a stressful week.  I was concerned, the drs were concerned, and it was scary.  Thanks to all of you for your thoughts and prayers.

On another note...I was sick too this week.  I had an awful cold.  An old fashioned nasty cold.  I didnt really give into it though because it was much more important to focus on my daughter and get her better.  For most of the week I didnt have a problem with my eating.  I couldnt taste or smell, and the stress made me actually need to force myself to eat.  But then....my inlaws came to town yesterday, my daughter started feeling better and I let go a bit.  I have said before that when my inlaws come there are so many temptations.   I need to learn to take control of my actions when this happens.  And for this reason, I am going to avoid the scale tomorrow even though it is weigh day.  There was no exercise this week and I am still not up for it.  My head was dizzy just walking around earlier from this stinkin cold.  Running is probably not an option right now.  But soon.  I am back on track and I dont want to even see the damage I did or make myself feel even more awful about it.  Even so though, it is very evident that I am a changed person. 

Today's reason for losing weight:
*Sometimes it seems that some people respect an overweight person much less than they do a non -overweight person.  Being on the overweight side of that equation for so long I dont think I respect a thin person any more than an overweight person.  But I do remember feeling like maybe I wasnt respected at certain times.  I have spent much time thinking about this wondering why this is.  Maybe it is something I had created in my overweight head? Maybe just a lack of self esteem?  I dont know.  Either way I would much prefer to be respected than not.  Does anyone have any thoughts on this?  I would be curious to hear them...

Today I am thankful for:
*the doctors who took the time and had genuine concern to help my daughter this week.  So many recheck visits and calls to check on her, running this test and that, and their excellent "bedside manner".  Many of you know how my thoughts about the medical field have soured after some awful experiences in the last few years.  So, having this positive experience, despite how scary and stressful it still was, was very important for me.

Have a great weekend!