Yesterday's Weigh In (Jennifer)

Yesterday's weigh in:   162.1.  That is two lbs down since last week.  This is a number I have seen several times over the last few months.  Up and down, up and down.  My real mini-ambition is to get below 161 which is the lowest I have seen on this journey, and then to see the 150's.  But, I am happy with a two lb loss last week.  I worked hard for it.  And I know I only did great things for my body along the way regardless of the scale.  I was focused in my eating, and I exercised regularly. 

Having siad that, last night I had some "treats".  Should I have had less of them?  Yes, but it wasnt awful.  I have been craving graham crackers.  So I had some.  And it wouldnt have been as bad had I not found the chocolate and marshmallows that were with them in the Smores bag from this summer.  Oops.  And this is exactly why I dont have this stuff in the house.  Because in a week moment it all goes down.  Although I have to say there are fewer weak moments than in the past.  And, I really dont feel too bad about it.  The sample menu/guide for eating that my gym provides allows for 6 days of eating a 1200 calorie diet and 1 day of letting loose and enjoying.  Now, letting loose and enjoying for me is much different than it was in the past.  A few graham crackers and smores is fine.  It wasnt a whole day(or every single day like it used to be) of eating crappy food.  This morning, for breakfast I had 1 cup of light yogurt with some frozen raspberries with a packet of granola from McDonalds.  I save the packets when I get a fruit n yogurt parfait there.  Again, a sign of the new Jen....getting yogurt at McDonalds!  My breakfast today...about 150 calories and very filling. 

Today's reason to lose weight:
*In the past when going to parties and such I was always self conscious about how much I was eating. I always compared what/how much I was eating to others to make sure I didnt get the "she is fat and shouldnt be eating that" look.  Although I must say it didnt stop me from overeating I just found ways to eat unnoticed.  Today we have a party to go to and I have no concerns about eating too much.  I feel in control.  I dont think people will scrutinize what is on my plate.  I am hoping this will only get even better with time!!!  Even on the days when I dont count calories because it is not food I prepared I feel I have a pretty good idea of how much is acceptable for my journey.

Today I am thankful for:
*being disappointed that my husband went back to bed this morning(which by the way he never ever does).  Why am I thankful for this?  Because the reason I am all bent out of shape is because I would like to go for a run before I have to shower and go to the party.  What a great way to start the day off when I  know there will be party food.  But we have two little ones so I have to stay with them if he is sleeping.  I am THANKFUL that I WANT to run!!!  I should say... my hubs would certainly get up in a heartbeat if I asked him to.  I didnt even tell him a run was in my thoughts so he had no idea.  But since he rarely sleeps in I think he deserves it.