Thursday, April 21, 2011

Why was I obese? (Jennifer)

So tomorrow is weigh day.  When I originally started Medifast over a year ago, I remember the first week seeming like it took forever.  And although I have come up on some small challenges (and hunger) this week I really think I did fine.  The week did not drag.  I looked forward to my lean and green meals each night and really enjoyed my 5 MF meals throughout the day.  Some things never change though because each time I had a MF meal I wished it were bigger!  hehe. I love food and there is nothing more to it.

That leads me to this thought...  How had I become obese for so long?  I was not an overweight child.  My mother always cooked healthy meals every night.  When I started putting on weight I wasnt depressed or unhappy.  I went to college and got up to 180.  I thought at the time that was big.  And for me who was at 160 before it was uncomfortable.  So I joined Weight Watchers and got down to 152 or so.  Then I met my husband.  He is a big guy, but not fat.  We both started gaining weight shortly after we started dating.  I am convinced it was happy fat. Another downfall for me is that I discovered I love fast food.  I rarely had it growing up.  And once I got a taste of it, I wanted it all the time(and thats how I got a fatty liver I am sure!). I learned that fast food is quick, easy and cheap.  And I believe that is what started my laziness. 

It has been a fight to get out of that way of life. When I had children it was no longer about just me.  They deserve the best start to life.  They deserve healthy nutrition.  And I have been working hard on that.  I have switched to whole grains whenever possible.  I even shop in the organic aisle at the store sometimes.  I am trying new things.  Now, if I could just get my husband on board...  He doesnt think twice about giving them crappy sugary snacks.  He, while he is no longer overweight, eats no veggies other than potatoes and very few fruits.  I know he means well.  He just doesnt see the harm in giving them crap or the benefits in giving them healthy things.  Its something we are working on!

Today's reason for losing weight:
*to set a good example for my children.

Today I am thankful for:
*having lost the 65 lbs I have lost to this date.  Although there is more to go I have come a long way.


Kimberlynn said...

You really have come so far Jennifer. I can so relate to this post. I also discovered a love of junky fast food in my late teens. It's been the hardest thing to overcome. I still allow myself to have it from time to time, but try really hard to keep myself in check.

I hope your weigh in goes really well tomorrow. You're doing great!

Desert Singer said...

Yes, I discovered my love of Jack in the Box Tacos (they are not human food, but I still loved them) and McD's sausage burritos... terrible habits that are hard to break.

I keep reminding myself how much money I'm saving by not doing the drive throughs anymore.

Good Luck with the Weigh In!

Jessica said...

So glad to have you back in the blog world!! I had really missed you! I hope you are feeling better and better! You are doing great with MF. Hope your weigh-in is what you are hoping for tomorrow :)

Bringing Pretty Back said...

Jennifer, You are an inspiration!

Joy said...

That is so tough! It's one thing to fight outsiders giving your kids stuff, but when someone in your house does it, it's hard to stop! I guess continued education is best.

I show love with food too. I wrote about that this week. It's a hard one to stop. For me, it took realizing I was doing it. Now that I know, I will be showing love in different ways. Not with food for sure!

Keep focused!!

Sue said...

Hi Jen, I was stunned by your willpower on Easter!! I never thought I would see such a thing from you, it just goes to show you that if you want something bad enought you'll dig deep down and go to the ends of the earth for it. You did it baby!! Thank goodness for your husband encouraging you because I would have said to go ahead and have a bite, it's Easter! I'll keep your stash for as long as you need! Love mom.