Hello, old friends. (Tricia)

Hi Everyone. I am sorry that I disappeared for so long. It has been a wild ride for the past month or so and I really needed to re-center myself emotionally and physically. I had some rough times dealing with some issues life threw at me, nothing specific, but you know how it is when the snowball just keeps rolling down the hill. And, given the fact that I am a control freak, when things beyond my control start happening, I tend to...um...overreact?...yes, that might be a good way to put it. I had to re-focus and that meant taking some time out for myself from blogging and facebook, and basically the computer all together. But I am happy to report that I am starting to regain my footing and return to life not in panic mode.
Sooo...lets get down to business. Medifast. After much deliberation and rationalizing, I have decided not to return to Medifast just yet. I have to say that it was a great program and I it worked so well. I may return to it in the future if I feel I am not meeting my goals or if I feel I need to. I can say over the past month that I have only gained 1lb since I stopped the program. But it is time to return to weight-loss mode and to focus on me again. I had to reflect on what brought me to the Medifast point in my life and remind myself of all the reasons I started the program. I had to bring up all the fears and reasons why I needed to lose weight. I then had to decide what the best option was for me to manage my weight-loss currently. I was thinking about WW again or counting calories, which are basically the same thing. But, I decided against those options and decided that I have done those before and I know how to do this. I know what I should and shouldn't eat, its just a matter of NOT eating what I shouldn't eat or eating them in moderation. Yes, the M word. I used it and applied it correctly, thank you. It is a new term to me since I never grasped the concept before. I am not sure if this is going to get me the results that I am hoping for, but this is a time when I feel that I have to figure out what works for me to keep taking off the pounds. And if it doesn't work, I am not going to get frustrated or angry with myself, I understand that I am going to have to adapt to something that does work. I don't want to be on a diet anymore. I want to learn how to eat correctly for my body for me to be a healthy person.
Jennifer, Teresa, and I started this blog in February talking about a journey that all of us were starting on. I thought that I had made a wrong turn somewhere, but I now realize that my path to get where I needed to be was just a little different.