Monday, August 30, 2010

Irony (Jennifer)

I went home this weekend to see my family even though I was unable to participate in my first scheduled 5k.  I pouted a little(I wont lie) and then decided to turn my focus on getting this ankle better.  I am happy to say that the pain itself is much better.  But the thing that concerns me is that even though it feels much better I am having a popping on the outside of the ankle with each step I take...every step.  It isnt like it comes and goes.  It is with every step.  So I did a little research on the internet about this and apparently it is fairly common but needs medical attention.  Grrrr.  We know how I feel about dr's these days.  But I just want to get better so I can get back into exercising, and complete a 5k!  I just cant get over the IRONY of this.  Six months ago you couldnt have PAID me to exercise.  And now that I really *want* to and something is standing in my way I am getting cranky about it.  So, I made the appt with the dr(a PA really) for tomorrow.  Apparently my home care of an ace  bandage is not completely fixing the problem.  I will keep you all posted.  Thanks for all your good wishes.

I also have to say that this is proving to be another "test" for the New Jen.  The old Jen would have used this as an excuse to throw in the towel and eat what I want.  A pity party per say.  It would have been another fall off the wagon.  And while I did indulge a bit while visiting family this weekend it is totally different, at least mentally.  It reinforced the fact that there is no wagon and this is the new me.  I have learned that I really like the New Jen much better, and now that I am back home I really want to focus on what I am eating since the exercise part isnt exactly playing a huge role in my journey at this moment.  So it is more important than ever to eat properly in order not to undo my hard work to this point. 

Thanks so much to Dawne and Lesia for my blog awards!  I am going to go "pick them up" now and see what they are all about.  I have only seen them on my email notification and I have much catching up to do on blogs!!


Bob said...


I left an award for you on my blog.


Lesia said...

Oh I hope your ankle heals quickly. But on a good note you can still lose weight and NOT exercise. I am living proof of it. Every week I am still losing with little or no exercise. So good luck just watch the food intake til you get healthy again.

Jennifer said...

Thanks bob! And Lesia- I just want you to know you are a total inspiration to me.

Jen said...

HI Jennifer! Don't forget, you could do resistance bands, weights, a little yoga and some pilates while you re-hab your ankle. I broke mine almost 3 years ago... didn't do any of those things and regret it immensely!

99ToGo said...

I've almost rolled my ankle a few times in Step class, and experienced that intense "what now??" fear of wondering how I'd cope with an injury...I hope I'd have your attitude, and NOT use it as an excuse to make poor food choices. And then get right back to the gym and work all of the other areas I still could.

Barbara said...

I'm so sorry about your ankle. That is a big bummer about the 5K. Get it looked at and make sure you take care of it and don't risk re-injury.
I love that you are missing the exercise. That proves you have come a long way in your journey.
Do you have an exercise bike (or access to one)? Maybe you can get some cardio in that way?

Jen said...

Good for you for going for it Jennifer! Glad I could help. I TRULY wish I had had someone do that for me. I lost 20lbs of ground in a 5 month time and still (3 years later) am not back to where I was :(