Our friends Ron and Teresa just left left. It was great having them and it makes you realize who your true friends are. But now everyone is gone and I find myself sitting here with a choice. My hubs brought the girls to dance and I have options as to how to fill my time. This really isnt something that happens too much! Sooo...should I relax? Get in some totally focused uninterrupted cleaning? Or...exercise since I havent today? I know what I SHOULD do. And the only things that is holding me back from success is ME and MY choices. How much do I want this? How much do I want to be healthy and feel good about me? I know that last week when I was on vacation I didnt feel great, physically or mentally, having eaten more food and some less than healthy stuff. So, there is my answer, right? Yesterday I was dreading getting on the treadmill. But I got on and then I felt like a rockstar and wanted to keep going. So I ask myself...what is it that makes me "dread" to get on it? It isnt a bother to get changed, and it doesnt physically hurt to run so what is my problem? Once I am doing it I love it. I feel great, motivated and acomplished. But it is just getting to that point that is tricky for me. And I dont get it. I think maybe its a mental thing. Exercise used to be something I dreaded because it hurt, I would get out of breath, uncomfortable, and so on... but that was 60+ lbs ago. And I think that it is still etched in my head that exercise = negative feelings. Isnt that odd? I am hoping that with time my mindset will change. Because once I get going its great! So my goal is to work on enjoying the whole concept of exercise. I want to look forward to it. Not just once I am into it, or after, but before.
Having said that...tonight I will either do a run, or go to the gym for zumba. I am waiting for a text back from Karen to see if she wants to go to the class or not. If not I will hop on the treadmill here and look forward to the great feeling of pride and accomplishment that I get while doing it and after.
Lesia-hope you had fun at your first Jazzercise class!!! Let me know how it goes.
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I feel the same and if you have any brilliant ideas on what the mental block is to the treadmill... PLEASE pass it on. I get on and do it... I'm happy, energized, feeling great! Before, I'm cranky, procrastinating, whiny... etc, etc. etc... I say I have a love/hate relationship with a piece of machinery!
I had fun at Zumba, thanks for inviting me. She was different, but I liked it! I had fun! Good times!!
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