I did it (Jennifer)

I did it.  I went to the gym(and even went in this time :)  With my new busier routine and my injured ankle and such, it has been a while since I have been at the gym.  Today I did it.  And it felt great.  The workout was tougher than usual since it has been almost a month since my injury and my body felt it.  But I did it.  I used the elliptical.  My ankle tolerated it but I did have some numbness in the foot area.  After 6 minutes I was asking myself how I could do it for 20 or 30 minutes.  I was tired and out of breath already.  It was a foreign feeling.  Interesting right?  But I got chatting(between panting of course) with the lady next to me and before I knew it I had burned 350 calories and was well over 20 minutes.  Then I moved on to some upper body weight training.  That felt good too.  But what really felt good was just knowing that I am helping myelf.   Even though things are busier in our lives these days it feels good to know that I am making the effort to help myself.  That plays a big part for me in the mental part of this journey. 

Another thing I realized is that although I have "stumbled" and have had a few rough eating days, my weight has really been amazingly(for me) consistent.  I usually weigh between the same 5 lbs range.  This morning I was at 163.6.  My range my body seems to be liking at this point(its been since June I think) is 161-166 ish.  Life has been busy.  I have had treats here and there.  I have had, and still do, have an obstacle with my ankle.  Life has happened day after day, and I realized that I seem to be handling it well.  I would like to get some more weight off but so far I am proud of my accomplishments.   As of today I am 63 lbs down in this journey. It is different now.   I am different now.  There is no yo-yoing going on.  There are no binges, and therefore no guilt afterward.  And there is no finish line.  I now understand that I am doing this for my health and I will never be able to go back to the way I used to eat and how inactive I was.   So despite the challenges that have come up and will come up in the future, I have confidence in myself that I can handle it.  Now...that is something I can be proud of. 

Hope you are all having a great day.