Cold (Jennifer)

I am cold. I am cold most of the time these days. My hands are like ice. Is it better than sweating profusely? Definately. My husband says it is because I am losing weight and my body is not used to it yet. And he whines when I untuck his shirt to put my freezing ice cold hands on his warm stomach. He may pout and whine but he always "lets me in". hehe. I think he knows the alternative is to turn on the heat. He always seems to be warm.

When I was heavier and my little girl was "sick" I seemed to be sweating all the time. Like hot flashes almost. At first I thought it was all hormonal because I had just had a baby. Then I thought it was from all the stress of her illnesses. But the sweating kept on even through the winter, and after she got better. And last summer was a nightmare. We bought our house with no A/C and no windows to install one ourselves. I spent most of last summer sweating and sticky and just plain miserable. I remember watching the weather every day praying it wouldnt be so hot. But something is different now. While it is pretty cool out now, we have had a few hot days here so far this year. And although I was hot and sticky, I was NOT miserable. I was NOT uncomfortable just moving around, or existing for that matter. My clothes were not sticking to me. Is this how "normal" people react to the heat? Am I becoming normal? Or is it just that my body has now gotten used to being cold all of the time? And a little heat is not as awful as it used to seem. Either way, I will take it! I would rather be cold and put on a blanket or the heat than to feel like I did last summer. Please dont be mistaken...we will still be getting central air next month :) I know I have said it in past posts, but even I know that I was not very "sweet" last summer :)

Today's reason for losing weight:
* I like this feeling that I have right now. I still have more weight to go but I feel good about me. It is great to feel good about me instead of always having that chip(my weight) on my shoulders.

Today I am thankful for:
* being able to look back on the stress we endured when our little girl was sick. I wondered if there would ever be a day when all was okay and be able to look back on it as a thing of the past. I wondered if there would ever be a time to look back and pull some sort of positive out of it. And I have. Thank you to those of you who helped me (us) through it. And of course, thanks to God. He showed me that I am stronger than I thought I was, even if it did take a toll on me.