Saturday, May 29, 2010

How? (Jennifer)

I am sure at some point or another that most obese people stop and ask themselves how they got "this way".  Today I was trying on a bathing suit at the store.  And as most of us know, finding the right one isnt usually easy.  And being overweight, even when I find "the one" I am sure I am not going to be thrilled and think I look hot in it.  But anyway, today I tried on a few bathing suits and it was an awful experience.  I had just tried on a few other things that fit great and I was happy with what I saw.  But then the bathing suits came and all of a sudden I saw all this hanging and sagging and stretch marks. etc.   And it was at that very moment when I said, "wow.  HOW had I let things get so out of hand?"  Did I not look in a mirror for years?  No, that wasnt it.  Did I wake up one day and it was all there?  Nope.  It took a lot of time and bad habits to get me where I was.  When times were tough I ate.  And times were tough a lot the last few years.  And I ate things that made me feel better while I was eating them.   And now that I am about 55 lbs down from my highest weight I hope that I can see my accomplishments and keep the strength to continue on to help myself.  Even though I sometimes see the areas I need to work on, I mostly as a whole see that I am working on me and that feels great. I usually see how far I have come and that is a much better feeling.  And along the way I am meeting some great people and learning and experiencing a lot of new and different things. 

Today's reason to lose weight:
*to have A positive experience when shopping for a bathing suit.  That would be awesome.  I hope I can find "the one".

Today I am thankful for:
*Our troops.  Past and Present.  Those who put their lives on the line for US to be able to live our everyday lives.  It popped in my head today while in the car that it is a holiday weekend and how I am grateful and how more people should be.  And then I looked up and saw flags on every street light as we were going down the road.  It was awesome, and I guess I just needed to take the time to notice.


Mom to the Fourth Power said...

Hi Jennifer,
I awarded you the Beautiful Blogger award. You can come get your award at my blog! I'm so glad I found your blog!!

John said...

Unfortunately, it will never be the same for us. We need to be creative about how we dress. But I have come to the realization that the only one I have to look good for is me and my wife. No one else matters.
Besides, she has seen me at my worse, so from here on, I will always look good. : )

Jennifer said...

What an awesome way to look at it, John.

Margene-Thanks so much! I feel honored.