I felt good! (Jennifer)

Since weigh in on Thursday I have had the frumpy feeling again. I think that I have been doing pretty well but since I have not measured anything out I dont feel 100% confident like usual. Today is Mothers day(my parents were in town) and I had a little piece of bacon with everyone's breakfast this morning. It was very yummy. I figured no carbs and very few calories (it was the precooked kind) so I went for it. But I felt like a cheater. Then we went to lunch with my inlaws today. That was nice. We went to Denny's which is a "hard one" for me because I love so many of the greasy fried foods there. The girls got some pancake puppies that I was drooling over. I had some of my mother in laws meat omelet and I ordered a grilled chicken salad. Usually the salads at any restaurant dont have anywhere close to 6 oz of chicken so I also ordered a scrambled egg on the side to complete my protein. And I was glad I did. There wasnt much chicken on it. I got my dressing on the side and dunked. It was good. But again...not a mesured amount so I dont feel 100% confident. I guess I should give myself a break because it isnt like I had something that was totally off plan...like a Wegmans sub, or real pizza, or a MCdonalds cheeseburger and fries...I am sure you are getting the point. I have made plenty of cookies and cakes and mufins and so on and have remained stronger than I thought I ever could. I should take pride in that, right??????

Last night this "wind" came over me. I was playing with the kids and had so much energy! The girls were just loving this side of mommy. I mean, I play with them all the time but I was literally RUNNING around the house as we were chasing each other. I had so much fun and then it hit me. I was out of breath like maybe most people would be(?) but it was not an exhausted, uncomfortable, "I have to sit down" kind of feeling. I had forgotten there was such a thing! Yaaaay me! And I was again reminded of this today. I took the dog for a walk and decided to jog back. Usually by the half way point I am praying to see the sight of my house. But not today. I was just going. Jogging. One step. Another step. Listening to my music. And then it dawned on me. I am not tired! I am not praying to see my house. I am just "doing this". Like it was an enjoyable thing. BECAUSE IT WAS!!!! OMG!!! Who am I? Me???? I am ENJOYING my jog. I havent jogged in a while so I expected just the opposite. A tired me. But no. The tired, praying to see my house Jen was not there. I really like this Jen. I thought it was a little odd over the last few weeks that I thought I was actually missing my jogs. That would just be a foreign thought that I, Jennifer, could possibly miss any form of exercise. But I did, and my jog was totally enjoyable today. And...on a side note... Sugar is now on "weight control" food and let the record show that she kept up with me today :) However, I will mention that is is already in bed. haha.

Today's reason for losing weight:
*to experience other things that I may find enjoyable but never knew it at a heavier weight. So far jogging and zumba are things that I NEVER thought would ever be "my thing". I like this new self discovery thing I have going on...providing it reveals good stuff of course :)

Today I am grateful for:
*my mother. My mother is possibly the best mother in the world. I really do feel that way. She is so supportive and always there for me no matter what.

Happy Mothers Day to all of you moms out there! Enjoy your day!