Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Bathing suit (Jennifer)

I hope you all had a nice holiday weekend.  Mine was pretty good for the most part.  The hubby had to work but it was still a nice time.  We went to the beach one day with some friends, a parade, and a BBQ at my friend Karen's house on Monday(thanks again Karen!).  Sunday was a total wash though.  I woke up and after a bit started having these wierd vision disturbances like I had looked directly into the sun and had these bright things in my vision.  I could barely see and everything looked distorted.  Luckily my husband was home when this happened and he shut the panic down :)   He said that used to happen to him before a migraine.  Sure enough about a half hour later I got a bad headache.  So when the girls took a nap (and I was counting the minutes) I layed down too...with sunglasses on and the curtains closed.  It was scary and I hope to never have one again.

I bought a new bathing suit.  And I actually like it!  It fits me well.  And I decided that maybe I could even find another top to go with the bottoms and have "options".  But I figured finding one bathing suit I liked was a task and finding a second would be impossible.  But....I did it!  We were in the mall today and I tried a few on in Sears.  There were tTWO that I liked so much I had to get them.  And of course they didnt match the bottoms I bought the other day so I had to buy new bottoms too.  I am not sure my husband was quite as thrilled as I was.  hehe.  He told me I should be good for bathing suits for a while now :)  But I am still shocked that I found A BATHING SUIT that I love?!  I put it on and it is one of those halter tops that have the ring between the two boob areas.  A very different style for me (I usually avoid halter tops since I am top heavy) but I really thought it looked so nice and fit so well.  THEN... my 3 year old says "Mommy!!!!  Your boobies are hanging out!"  So out of the dressing room I went and found two random women who were also trying stuff on.  I could tell by the way they were talking that they would be honest.  And it is just what I wanted.  So I asked their opinion since I am sure they heard my daughter's opinion of the "girls".  They both said they loved it and asked me to turn around and all.  They said they would never look at me and think "what is she wearing?" if they saw me out.  I have not shown my husband yet so we will see what he says.  Although sometimes his opinion doesnt really count.  One time I made meatballs and I told my mom that Steven loved them.  She said his opinion didnt count because he always agrees.  hehe.  I could leave the house in a tent and he probably wouldnt say anything...hehe.  Except for the other day when I was in the middle of a sentence and he blurted out "Is your nose getting bigger?".  Nice.  Nope, my face is getting thinner....apparently my nose isnt....


Well, I hope that post was not too much for you all.  But it is what is and was happening in my life these days :)

Tricia-WHERE ARE YOU???????????  No blogging worries me....
Teresa-glad to hear from you!

Today's reason for losing weight:
*to enjoy clothes shopping again!

Today I am thankful for:
*the words that come out of my girls' mouths.  Such innocence.  They make me smile.

4 comments:

Tricia said...

It is so funny that you say that about your nose because I thought the same thing the other day about my nose! I came to the conclusion that it just wasnt surrounded by my chubby cheeks anymore! Good for you with your boobies and your bathing suits. And..you should be worried, not in a good place...

Karen said...

Isn't it funny how our little children can say anything they want and most of the time we laugh...hence your boobies hanging out. Been there done that. The other day (as a matter of fact) I was getting dressed (I don't hesitate to get dressed or undressed in front of Shaylin, but anyone else, I can't do it) and she blurts out something to the fact that my butt is really big. Lovely. You know they don't really know what they are saying or know that words can hurt but that coming from a 3 year old really hit home. I know some people might say, let it go, but I can't. Not when it comes from my daughter.

Jennifer said...

Trish- hope our 95 minutes phone call (yup...thats what my phone said when we hung up) helped. You sounded much brighter and happy when we hung up. I love to hear you laugh!

Keep up your hard work because you have come so far and as so many of us know it is hard to redo the work we have once already done. Give yourself credit and focus on YOU. It will make you feel better inside and therefore be able to deal with all the stressors in a better way. Keep going!!!! Dont give up on yourself. And please think about what I said...find a HUGE reward for yourself for your 100 lb weight loss day. Turn the "cheap" off in your head and turn on the "i deserve something awesome". And then just do it! Go for it! 50 lbs in 13-14 weeks. Who does that? YOU!!! And y ou are half way there!!!!! I think we should celebrate when you get to 100 down. Sound good? Teresa...you on board?

Karen-yup, I was told once "mommy, your highknee is big...." nothing like the honesty of a three year old. But remember that to them that you are an adult and regardless of weight you are considered "big" in their eyes. So dont take too much offense. But I am so proud of you for your recent changes you have made too. Keep up the good work and it will pay off.

Laura said...

WQow you're doing so great! Love the NSV with the swim suit! That had got to be one of the hardest parts of being big. Swimsuit shopping stinks then. But I'm so excited for that time down the road when I can shop for a swimsuit and know that I look good!