Walking by (Tricia)

I was walking by a row of cubicles today on my way to lunch and I heard a co-worker say to another co-worker "she is melting away." My first natural instinct was to stick my head back around the corner and return the comment that would put myself down like "please, its a long way from melting" or something like that. Something that I have become accustomed to doing as most of us heavier people do-make fun of ourselves before someone else does so it doesn't hurt as much. But I didn't. I kept walking. With a smile on my face. Obviously if they wanted me to hear what they said, she would have said it to me. And, it wasn't a mean, talking behind someones back kind of comment, it was a nice complement. So I let myself accept it. I accepted it knowing that I am making progress and people can see it. Thinking that someone noticed my commitment and my loss. And that's when a little pride set in. Yup, I did it. I lost 30 lbs and I am proud of it. I am proud of myself and all of the little goals and mini-successes that I have achieved in the past two months. I had a party in my head, with a strobe light and techno music. I tell ya, it was a rocking time in there. Lately, I have been putting more of an effort in my appearance. Even though some of my clothes are a little too big for me, I have been attempting to put myself together more. I am wearing earrings again, getting up earlier to do my hair and wearing a little lipstick with my usual make up. But, today was the first day that I feel my attitude fit a little better with my new outward appearance. I felt like I was showing my confidence by not what I was wearing on my body, in my ears, or on my face, but in my posture and in my attitude. And boy, is it a good time for this new Tricia to come around because I have an interview for a new position at my company tomorrow and I really would like to have this job. So, bring it on! I will be looking my best and giving it my all!