Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Here I am! TERESA

Well I am back! Sorry it took so long! Thanks for the shot out Tricia! Once I read your comment on FB I new it had been way too long. So I am still counting points and I am down 6 lbs in 3 weeks. I am trying to stay positive and be proud but lately eating healthy seems like a chore. Yesterday was really tough for me. Something triggered an eating frenzie in me. I do not know if it was something I ate or all the thoughts going through my head about my life. I am thinking that it was the stress the thoughts brought to me. I am def a stress eater. Food is my comfort. I have always had this problem a little bit, but is has been much worse the last few years. I think that many of the changes in my life have been difficult for me. I have lost a lot of close relationships( more like the relationships have changed in one way or another) and I think that sadly they have been replaced with food. I have been staying active. Everyday I take my son out for a wagon ride. It is great exercise because not only and I walking but I am pulling 30+ lbs behind me! I am going to start going to the gym again because I need to set time aside for myself. I also need to be around other people who are doing healthy things. It is motivating to me. I am hoping that this blog will get me back on track or that a few people will yell at me and tell me to keep going!!! I want this time to be different. Once I get to where I want to be I want to stay there. I have traveled to the magical place of good health and beauty many times but I have never cared enough to stay there. This time I care. I do not know what my life will bring or where I will be 2 years from now, but I know that I want to be writing a blog about how great life is as a healthy, beautiful women.


Jennifer said...

Yeah for you for being on here! I am finding it to be so helpful and I know that you will too. I am accountable to not just myself but everyone who reads. And I have to tell you(in case you havent read my posts) that it is pretty therapeutic. Yes, things and relationships change and we turn to comfort in get that few minutes of pleasure when everything around us feels tough. But it has been only recently that I realized(I have had lots of realizations) that taking back control of my life is truly the best way to make things better. It will increase your self esteem, self image and energy. I am glad that you realize that you need "you" time and although it may be tough to get yourself to the gym, I bet the way you feel after you leave soon becomes great enough that you keep going. I am proud of you and I know you can do this. And we are here to "yell" at you if that is what you would like :) Another realization for me... I am doing this one meal at a time. I am no longer looking at the bigger picture but at what I will eat at my next meal. And that is much less overwhelming.

Tricia said...

I am so glad you blogged. I have been thinking of you for a week and wondering how you were doing. Remember that you are doing this for your happiness and even when your emotions are high, and you want to scarf down some junk, if you dont, you will feel better about yourself for making the right choices.