Today I was brave and my husband and I took the girls out...to McDonalds. For those of you who know me I love McDonalds. LOVE MCDONALDS. And my "weight games" always led me there. When I would fall off the weight wagon I would go there. When I was just being defiant, I went there. When I felt hungry or just wanted something yummy, I went to McDonalds. And right before I would start one of my many diets, I went to McDonalds. And I have the fatty liver to represent my love of McDonalds. And when Trish called me tonight and I told her I was on the way to Mcdonalds she said " NO! NOT MCDONALDS!!!" You get the point. So yes...it was brave of me to venture there. It was kind of a test for me I guess. But I knew I would succeed. I knew I wasnt going to have enough time for my lean and green before we left the house so I decided to have a mint crunch bar. This used to be my favorite until I discovered the peanut butter and the oatmeal raisin bars. These bars make me so excited to eat them and give me a sense of guilt because they taste so good. Anyway...I had a mint bar and off we went. We were sitting at McDonalds and everyone was eating...the kids eating very slowly as usual and my husband fast enough that I am not sure he breathes between bites. But I hung in there! I had a sense of accomplishment. Did I want a bite of their food? Yes. And the fries looked and smelled great. But I didnt do it. I drank my diet coke and then got another. The bubbles filled me up and by the time we left there I felt so accomplished. But I found myself wondering...how can I be for certain there isnt any "accidental" real sugar/carbs in this soda? Can those machines be that precise? I fear this because the main reason Medifast works is by keeping you in fat burning mode. Just a few carbs over the allowed, or one accidental meal can take you out of that mode and it would take days of proper eating to get you back in. It would be like starting over. And this very concept is what makes this program work for me. I dont want to undo any of my hard work and have to start over!!! I want to make the best out of every day of effort.
So...I came home and made a cauliflower (crust) pizza again. It was excellent and it took me half the time as it did the other night. I think I will keep it to once or twice a week but I shouldnt feel guilty about it because the cheese is on the meatless options on the Medifast site. But yet it tastes so good that I feel like I am cheating!! I went out to eat yesterday with Karen and I couldnt help but feel a little out of control again. I was thinking...I got grilled chicken breast over salad greens with light ranch on the side. I used minimal dressing as I dunked the fork before I grabbed my food. The dressing tasted so good...too good. So again I asked myself...how can I be sure this is light dressing? I did ask her but who knows what actually came, right? And who knows what yummy stuff is on the grilled chicken. And I didnt have a scale to see how much meat there was but I am sure it was less than 6 oz. I also had no idea how much green was on my plate. 2 cups? 3? 4? (Sorry Karen for you having to listen to all my thoughts outloud). And the salad greens had more than just green leaf lettuce. I have no idea what some of those green and red stemmy things were(yet I ate them :). So I was hoping they were on the approved veggie list. I think the best answer may be to ask questions next time but I just hate to be one of "those people". Thats all I need is the cook to come out with some bag of greens pointing out what each different green thing is. But I guess I will find out how these things affected me on weigh day. I experimented with new things this week and it made the week easier for me! I feel like a normal eating person...
And for those of you wanting to know how Zumba went....it was CANCELED. I am still devastated!
And my reason for the day that I want to lose the weight....
*smaller clothes = less laundry
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Wow, You are hard core serious when you can go to MickyD's and not one french fry!! I'm impressed with your stamina and self-control..you must get that from your father. Can't wait to try one of your newfound pizzas! Keep up the good work and blogging. I read your blog as often as I can. Your are amazing and will look amazing for the summer days.
I can't say it enough, good for you and all your hard work. Passing on Mcdonald's shows you mean business. I wish I was as serious as you. I am still struggling with WW. Some days are great, other days are so hard. But, I keep going and I know the end result is what I am looking for and even though it's far away, I'll get there someday.
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